The Twenty-Second Night

 

We were sitting on the veranda, admiring the moonlight cast over the silver sea, savoring the tea liqueur I’d prepared some time ago, when I said:

“Last Tuesday, I found an octopus among the coral reefs.”

“For real? How’d you notice it?” Nick asked, intrigued.

“I know those reefs well, and I noticed one of them looked bigger, its outline just... off. I moved in closer, reached out gently — and a tentacle curled softly around my finger. Just as delicately as I had approached it. We exchanged what felt like… a few caresses.”

“That kinda sounds like an erotic story,” Nick joked, grinning.

“Far less than that, believe me. But quite suddenly, it wrapped itself around my arm, all the way to my elbow. It changed color and texture — to mimic my skin. But it didn’t harm me; it simply received the strokes I gave its great, strange head.”

“Were you snorkeling?”

“Oh, yes. It was easy to sit on the sea floor and still breathe. Octopuses are fascinating creatures. We played like that for a while, and then, gently, I nudged it back toward the coral — which it understood, and obeyed. I left the sea and went to work.”

“So… you made a new friend?”

“I doubt it. Octopuses are solitary, and I don’t believe their nervous systems allow for what we’d call affection. I suppose I didn’t pose a threat and may have even given it some physical pleasure; that’s all. Speaking of relationships, how are things going with your violets?”

“They’re hangin’ in there — still alive,” Nick replied.

“Very good. Do you speak to them?”

“Come again?”

“Your violets. Do you speak to them?”

“No...” he said, with a note of confusion in his voice, as though I’d suddenly become some odd, esoteric figure.

I laughed and pressed on.

“There’s some evidence that plants respond emotionally to external events and that they communicate with one another.”

 “Seriously?”

“Seriously. I don’t know if they ‘hear’ us, but they do perceive our presence — and our actions. It seems they even recognize us as ‘the bringers of water,’ for example. Talking to a plant can forge a sort of bond between it and its caretaker. I know countless stories of people who threatened to cut down a fruitless tree, and suddenly, it bore fruit — or bloomed, or came back to life when it seemed dead. Start an emotional relationship with them. Talk to them. Let them be your third magic chair.”

He laughed as he said, “You haven’t forgotten my magic chairs?”

“Not only have I not forgotten — I totally understand it.”

“I’ll give it a shot. I’ll try talking to my violets.”

“Please do. I just hope they don’t talk back.”

We both laughed.

“Made me think of that one who goes, ‘Feeeed me!’”

“Audrey II!”

“That’s the one! “Little Shop of Horrors!”

“Fantastic films — both the musical and the original.”

“I’ve never seen the original.”

“Directed by Roger Corman, at the height of his powers. Not as pulsing or with the grandeur of the remake, but full of charm. Want to watch it?”

“Right now!” he shouted, springing from his chair.

 

 

 

 

The Twenty-First Night

 

We were playing our weekly round of crapaud when Nick said to me,

“I rewatched Mary Poppins last night.”

“You really like that movie, don’t you?”

“Totally love it! It just makes me feel good.”

“I like it a lot too, but it doesn’t make me happy—just cheerful.”

“What d’you mean?”

“Happiness is the lasting possession of something that truly satisfies. You watched the film, you felt good—but then something came along and drained that joy away. Isn’t that what happened?”

“Yeah… that’s exactly it.”

“Something came up, five minutes later, and you’d already forgotten the movie—and the feelings it gave you.”

“True.”

“You see how powerful my psychic abilities are?” I said with a laugh.

“Oh, I see them loud and clear!” he laughed back.

“The fact is, in this life, nothing is permanent. It’s impossible to possess anything completely, no matter how much we may wish it. Not love, not health, not wealth. Everything is always on the edge of imminent loss. In Taoism, they teach that the state of change is the only thing in the universe that doesn’t change. In truth, that concept appears in every culture across the ages, and it’s not metaphysical in itself—it’s simply observation. And yet we ‘moderns’ forget this, and keep chasing, in vain, after happiness.”

“So you’re saying we’re doomed to be sad? Unhappy?”

“On the contrary. Even the most basic rational thought about the human being tells us we were made for happiness. That’s why humanity has always sought it. The real question is: where is happiness to be found? It’s not wise to go looking for bread in a pharmacy—yet that’s what mankind is doing nowadays. If it’s true that nothing in this world can be possessed permanently, it must be that we are looking for it in the wrong place.”

“You’re talking about God again, aren’t you?”

“Yes—and don’t forget I’m Catholic. What I mean is: the whole universe moves and changes according to an order that presupposes an intelligent creator. Parts of that order we’ve even been able to translate into mathematical formulas—a microscopic fraction of the whole, of course, but still, we got there. And even that points to a designing intelligence behind the fabric of the cosmos. That intelligent entity, which is outside the universe and brought it into being, is what humanity has always called God. As you can see, I haven’t even needed to appeal to religious arguments to get there. True religion only begins with Judaism—when this entity reveals itself—and it reaches its fullness in Catholicism, when God becomes incarnate, becomes one of us, and shows us His face.”

“My head’s kinda spinning here…”

“Hang in there just a little longer—and let’s forget Judaism and Catholicism for a moment. Let’s stay with the false religions, because even in them, we find echoes of the truth, though not the Truth. Our ancestors came to the knowledge of God simply by reflecting on themselves and the world around them—and the obvious conclusion was that if we are part of a created universe, then like all created things, we do not own ourselves. We owe everything to God. That intuitive knowledge is what gives rise to our longing for happiness: a desire to belong to the only unchanging good, whose possession would make us truly happy—our Creator God.”

“You do realize your line of thought is, like… totally chaotic? My therapist would probably want you committed on the spot.”

“I wouldn’t doubt it. By the way—aside from a few cheerful moments and an underlying sadness, what exactly has she offered you?”

Nick laid his cards down on the table and stared at me, lost in thought.

 

 

The Twentieth Night

 

We'd been through a week of intense heat, and I decided to prepare one of the most refreshing dishes I know.

I was first introduced to it at a restaurant in London, where it went by the name "Neapolitan salad." I very much doubt the name is accurate, but since I’ve never been to Naples, I can’t say for certain.

The recipe, however, is marvelous — and absurdly simple. I sliced two beef tomatoes, one for each of us. About half a centimeter thick, more or less — thick enough to really bite into. You don’t want them too thin.

I arranged the slices as artfully as I could, like flower petals, and in the center, I placed a ball of buffalo mozzarella — fresh as morning dew.

A sprinkle of salt, pepper, and oregano over the tomatoes and cheese, then a generous drizzle of olive oil to finish it off.

Voilà. Ready to serve — the perfect starter.

I know there are a thousand ways to prepare tomatoes and cheese; others add herbs and rich dressings. I skip over all those rococo variations to honor the simplest form — and I must say, it has never failed me.

Nor did it fail last night.

Afterwards, we had a light seafood pasta, suitable for a warm evening, and grapes for dessert.

Nick was unusually at ease — relaxed, genuinely happy. He reminded me of a butterfly I once saw in the Serra Gaúcha: large, with vibrant metallic-blue wings... and free. The way that brilliant blue stood out against the dark forest green was unforgettable.

I think I’ll remember Nick, that night, for many years to come.

“What’re you thinking about?” he asked.

“A butterfly... and how precious it is to live each moment well.”

“Wait — you weren’t even listening to what I was saying?”

“Of course I was. And more than just what you said — I was taken in by how you said it. I was... intoxicated by that youthful joy of yours. It's so rare, and it makes you incredibly attractive.”

“Man, I think your place has become my second magic chair.”

“Magic chair?” I said with a smile.

 “You know... when I sit in my therapist’s chair, it's like all my defenses just melt away. I relax, stuff comes to mind — even painful things — but somehow, it all feels healing.
It’s like after a tough workout at the gym — the body hurts, but it feels good. That’s what that chair does for me. And I think... I think I’m feeling the same thing here, right now.”

There was a pause. Though I felt a touch embarrassed for stirring so much emotion in him, I smiled — patient, letting him live his moment.

 “Last week, you did a lot — I mean, a lot — helping me with that letter to my sister.I kept thinking about the two of us, like... partners in crime, you know? Like we’d gotten through some kind of level together. I don’t know how she’ll respond, but damn — you helped me see so much, while we were writing those lines together.”

There was another pause. Then he went on:

“You probably think I’m ridiculous. I guess... all this is just my way of saying thank you, for what you did for me.”

“All love letters are ridiculous,” I replied.

“Yeah! He said with laughable enthusiasm. You said that the other day! Who was it again...?”

“Fernando Pessoa.”

“That’s the one. I’m gonna have to learn Portuguese to read this guy...”

“An excellent reason to get to know an excellent language.”

 

 

The Nineteenth Night.

 

We were halfway through our second game of crapaud when Nick said to me—in that completely casual way he likes to bring up topics that matter deeply to him, as though pretending not to care at all:

"You know we talked about you in my therapy session?"

"I’ll have to tell her it’s all lies and misunderstandings."

"Idiot," he said, laughing. "But seriously, we hardly ever talk about sex. She was the one who brought it up. I mean... everyone has sex and..."

"Would you like to have sex with me?"

He stopped, taken aback, and blushed.

"I... I don’t know."

I replied, "If I were to have sex with you, we’d be setting ourselves on a short and straight road to Hell—and I’d bear the heavier sentence. That being said, freedom obliges me to reject that option."

"You mean even if you wanted to... you wouldn’t?"

"Yes."

"You Catholics are all crazy."

"We always have been," I said, smiling. "In a broad sense, we Catholics always decide with two things in mind: first, the consequences of our actions; and second, our death—which is the gateway to eternal life. It’s like a compass. Does this action bring about a good that leads to Heaven, or an evil that drags me to Hell?"

He paused his game to mull over my words, and I paused too, to give him time.

"I’m thinking of my dad. He... he..."

"He only wanted to satisfy himself to feel happy."

"Yeah."

"Assuming there is a God, and that He loves you—and given the consequences of your father’s actions on your life—it’s only just that your father should receive some form of punishment from God. To love someone means to hate whatever harms them."

"I used to think all dads were like him."

"And I think we need to try that tea liqueur I made last week," I said, standing up to fetch the small glasses and the green bottle.

"Sorry for ruining your night," said Nick, wiping a tear from his cheek.

"You didn’t ruin anything. On the contrary—you’re making it richer. A friendship made only of fine wine and good laughs will never be solid. Cheers! To us!"

"Cheers!"

After a sip, Nick said:

"Whoa. This is good! Tea liqueur? I didn’t even know that was a thing."

"Anything is possible."

"You must think I’m an idiot."

"Never. You know, my godmother used to say: if you work with roses, your hands will smell like them. Could anyone go through what you’ve been through without bearing scars? That’s exactly why I respect you so much."

"If my dad had thought like you, I wouldn’t have been corrupted the way I was. Did I ever tell you my dad was Catholic?"

"So was Judas Iscariot. Worse—he was a bishop!"

"If I talk to my therapist about this conversation, I’m gonna drive her crazy!"

"Might be worth a try," I said—and we both laughed.